Losing My Passion For Passionlessness

I realized today that, to some degree, I have lost that fire that God lit under me and in me five years ago. Five years ago I began to see the Bible with new eyes, I began to hear God's Word with new ears, God gave me a new heart to love Him more than anything else, I began caring about His things and His people. But as seasons change, so does life. There are valleys and there are peaks. There are storms and there is sunshine. And as surely as the sun rises every single day, so God is faithful to His own.

A conversation today reminded me that I've been living in the past, specifically in a past rebuke that has hurt me ever since. What the people said was too broad to be helpful, and it's bothered me ever since. Ultimately, it's stifled my passion for God because I've become afraid of hurting someone else's "feelings" when I talk about Him. You see, when the Bible says, "I believed, therefore I spoke," I take it seriously. Speaking is the natural outflow of believing.

It does not matter whether people want to hear it, it doesn't matter how they feel when they hear it, it doesn't matter whether they listen or care or tell you to shut up. We who trust Jesus have a commission from Him to make disciples of all peoples by preaching His forever-true, forever-standing, never-changing Word, and to do it from a heart of love for Him and love for others.

There used to be a time - my friends remember these days well - when I was visibly and audibly excited about GOD. HE was the song in my heart and the words on my lips. Not that I didn't do wrong or say stupid things - I did all the time! - but the music of my life was obviously God and God alone.

Lately I've noticed that this kind of music, this kind of fire, is largely absent from my life. Apparently I've believed the lie that cooling down is part of growing up. Well I have a newsflash - it's NOT. Cooling off on God is not part of growing up as a Christian. Don't buy the lie. Just because we grow in Christ and His wisdom does in no way mean that we settle for half-hearted passions for Him. HE is EVERYTHING !!! Everything to the Christian! Everything to the world! Everything that we need and want and hope and pray for is found perfectly in Him!

Dear Father, help me take hold of Your one Man much tighter. May You burn Your Word in me like fire, and make me a burning and shining light for Jesus. I miss His joy in my heart, I miss His name on my lips. Please come and renew me again, I pray in Christ's name. Amen.